|Blow Pipes and Puntys in pipe warmer|
The ends of the pipes are perfect at an orange glow….not too yellow, not too red.
Today was a “balls to the walls” (B2W) kind of day in the studio.
Big macho energy….mine.
Big fresh ideas….mine.
My B2W attitude brings me more of what I already know. It is big and tough and not to be messed around with. I think it’s what it takes for me to step up to my ideas.
Not today. Not recently.
And less and less is this attitude of bravado working for me. I can be grateful to see how the competitive rush- that I rise to so easily- is loosing it’s edge. That the strategies that chop and cut- sharp and definite are not taking me to where I want to be.
Just because B2W got/gets me through some interesting jaunts and intersections, it isn’t much of a journey. It is, like I said, big and tough, and today… it led to “floor models”- a term coined by the person who taught me how to blow glass-Ed Broadfield.
Notice the plural of “floor model”? This is one…. Of a few…. That I dropped today.
Today I blew glass.
“I thank God for everyday that I get to blow glass!”
In the shadow today on Bates-
To be here -present- in my breath feels a luxury to me on one hand and on the other……
The other hand, muscular from use -strong. The one willing to reach out to the wild horse. The one that can snap it’s fingers crisply and sharply without thought. The one that gets “R” done.
On that hand I place my judgement. I set it high, where it can see the full stage. Cringe with the discomfort of what drama unfolds. Chat, cough, “uhhhhum”, unwrap candy wrappers, text, laugh where it wants, not budge- while the one hand gets full stage. Deep breaths. All the way to the belly. Many deep breaths. Deep breathing. FINALLY! (Notice which gets the last word!)